2024

2024

I need you more than you know.

Take care of us. Please.

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My dearest Abynaya,

I haven't been able to say anything publically. I feel like I haven't been able to find the words. It feels like the words don't exist. I wish I could explain how much I miss you. How much I love you.

But I can't yet. I don't know when I will. But when I do find the words, you'll be the first to hear them.

This year wasn't what it was supposed to be. I can't believe you're not here. It doesn't feel real. It doesn't feel right. And it definitely doesn't feel fair.

It’s hard to find the motivation to keep going.

I don't know what this next year holds. But I have plans. I had plans last year too, and you knew all about them lol. I'm gonna lean into me even more. The way I told you I would.

I know these aspirations come from a place of lack because I feel like I have to be special to be valuable. But the thing is, despite why I want the things that I want, I know I can get them, so I’m going after them.

Please guide us. Please protect us. Please help us heal.

Every day I'm closer to my dreams. And every day I'm closer to you.

I don't know how long I have, none of us do. But I'll fall in love with this life again, I promise you.

In 2024, I'll do my part. God, please take care of us.

🫂❤️‍🔥